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Prompting Part XXXV


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(Anonymous) 2015-01-06 03:15 am (UTC)(link)

Something like the above. Aliens or a separate species to humans investigates /observes humans and records their findings on them or just reflects on them . Doesn't have to be like above. Any characters: A John who gets super confused because Sherlock is odd, A Sherlock who really does have a body as transport, a skittish Molly that is much more confident in her own planet? etc.

OP says sorry title: Alien or separate species- any pairing or gen

(Anonymous) 2015-01-06 03:18 am (UTC)(link)
better next time according to Mycroft...thanks


(Anonymous) 2015-01-06 03:42 am (UTC)(link)
Prompt: John is a genius but is only a genius in things he is interested in. The same way Sherlock is only interested in certain things and 'erases' everything else until someone makes fun of his deficiencies is what John does too.

Lets see John exercising some of that genius.

+It comes in a totally non-critical time . Like he starts rattling off facts that those near him don't know and Sherlock has to check to make sure.

++Happens more and more the longer he is with Sherlock but though he likes knowing things, unlike Sherlock, he doesn't boast about them.

+++Harry is also a genius
gen or not is fine.

Reprompt: Post Reichenbach AU, John's Feelings Matter

[identity profile] 2015-01-06 12:09 pm (UTC)(link)
John and Mary are already married when Sherlock comes back. The thing is, Mary is Moran and Sherlock tricks her into outing herself and her illegitimate baby in front of John. Mary is arrested. He also has Mycroft dissolve John's marriage for him, as Mary's ID isn't real and they might as well get it all done with right?

Then, when all that is finished, Sherlock turns to John and is like, let's go home to Baker St, aren't you happy I'm here to clean up after you and do what's best for you, why are you still upset about that, it wasn't real?

It's too much, and John just shuts down and goes back to his now-empty house, desperately trying to DEAL with everything. He won't talk to Sherlock, won't answer his texts. Sherlock is sad and confused, so eventually Molly or Mycroft or even Lestrade come over to harangue John for Sherlock's suffering.(after all he sacrificed and suffered for you/he misses you/ you know he doesn't understand these things/ you're being cruel and selfish)

John finally snaps and rages at them with all of his pain and anger over the betrayals of two people he loved and trusted, his 3rd shattered life, his insecurities built up during his time with Sherlock, and his frustration with these people, who KNEW about Sherlock's plan, who didn't have to LIVE in a world where Sherlock was DEAD, who didn't have to live with the GUILT of not stopping whatever drove his friend to suicide, who DARE to scold him over his feelings as if they don't matter. As if JOHN doesn't matter.

Sherlock somehow hears the tirade and (finally) realizes how much this has fucked John up.

Whether or not Sherlock and John reconcile is up to you, but DON'T make it easy. That is my one real requirement. I'm not discounting Sherlock's own suffering and PTSD, but not at the cost of John's pain and worth as a (fictional) human being.

*I'm constantly frustrated with how John is treated in the show and in a lot of fics, and I might even fill this myself just to vent. I'm also open to other related fills if you can find them.

Re: Reprompt: Post Reichenbach AU, John's Feelings Matter

(Anonymous) 2015-01-06 12:12 pm (UTC)(link)

This is from someone who adores a certain level of PTSD!Sherlock, too.

John doesn't need Sherlock.

(Anonymous) 2015-01-06 01:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Captain John Watson is perfectly capable of taking care of his thirst for adrenaline and battlefield. He needed Sherlock at first to get up on his own feet after being wounded, but that's just it.

Some nights John puts on a dark special forces uniform (or something like that), covers his face with a balaclava and goes after baddies, to save people who need to be saved (from abusers, robbers, rapists and other scum).

Sherlock finds out. His reaction? He desperately wants his John back to be his inspiration again, wants them to work together again. Clearly, John wants to fight crime. But they can fight crime together, like they used to! John is okay by himself though, and doesn't want to run after Sherlock anymore. They can have some cases together, as equals(!), but John is his own man. A lot of angst is very welcome, and so is unrequited (or even mutual, but maybe impossible) love. I'm okay if you give johnlock some hope though.

Bonus if the mysterious hero in balaclava gets some recognition and admiration from the good people. There are interesting rumours and speculations. People are intrigued. There are even admirers in NSY.

Can take place after Sherlock's return from being "dead".

Re: John doesn't need Sherlock.

(Anonymous) 2015-01-07 04:13 pm (UTC)(link)


Reprompt: Dom/Sub Johnlock, Pushy!Sherlock Dom!John

(Anonymous) 2015-01-07 12:21 am (UTC)(link)
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Sherlock used to be a pushy bottom but his new boyfriend, John, will have none of it. Sherlock has never had a dom as subtle but exacting as John. It changes everything.

Mycroft says: fast and loose, we need this!

Adrenalin BAMF Genius!John, Johnlock?

(Anonymous) 2015-01-07 12:43 am (UTC)(link)
John is just as intelligent as Sherlock. In different subjects of study maybe (physics, trajectory, militarist tactics, hand-to-hand combat, arms and weaponry, advanced nuclear fusion go nuts) but just as smart... when hopped up on adrenalin that is.
How else did he make that shot in the pilot episode?

I just wanna see a situation where we see cuddly, normal John and then something awesome/terrible happens and suddenly John's rattling off the forces needed to snap someone's neck.

Johnlock, noncon by way of guilt tripping/coercion

(Anonymous) 2015-01-07 01:44 am (UTC)(link)
One of the reasons Sherlock isn't a full time spy despite having experience and skill and intelligence is because multiple times in the past, Sherlock has had to use his body (in sexual favours way) to get the mission complete. Sure he has smarts and wit but sometimes the other person really just wants a piece of Sherlock.

Now with john, john finds out by piercing things together... The stuff Sherlock does and says and the stuff Sherlock says in front of Mycroft contradict each other and john finds it highly disturbing. But when the truth comes out reluctantly, Sherlock's attitude toward it disturbs john even more - Mycroft knew his brother was being coerced into sex on his missions. And Sherlock thinks it's better he put out than have a world war break out.

John secretly goes off and confronts Mycroft who also has the same point of view - Sherlock getting raped is truly a better alternative, one life for the cost of millions sort of thing. John is disgusted by Mycroft, he's practically pimping his baby brother out. John is vocal about his distrust and dislike of Mycroft following this, which surprises everyone since they don't know the reason behind johns change in attitude.

As for their private life, Sherlock and John already don't have much sex. Sherlock is relieved now that John seems to hate Mycroft even more than he does. John has stopped initiating and misunderstands Sherlock's relief to be correlated to sex. John becomes unsure and intimidated by the thought of initiating due to being scared of making things worse. Other times, john is over protective of Sherlock.

Until one day, Mycroft comes to ask Sherlock to go undercover and Sherlock agrees without much thought. John is absolutely furious. Sherlock has to use his body sexually again but this time was the feather that finally crushed Sherlock. He wants to keep it from John but when he returns home, John takes one look and just knows. John gets a restraining order put on Mycroft even though Sherlock wants his brother who is the only one Sherlock can talk to about the classified mission and who truly understands the need for sacrifice.

1) John explaining his post-Reichenbach feelings to Sherlock; 2) Danger night

[identity profile] 2015-01-07 04:39 am (UTC)(link)
I have many ideas, but I couldn't choose one, so I hope posting two is all right. *hopeful smile*

1) “Sherlock, I need you to understand something. This is not something someone just ‘gets over.’ This is going to be with me forever. I am going to have nightmares about this for the rest of my life. And no, I’m not being melodramatic. I think I know myself well enough by now to know how I react to things, and seeing my best friend throw himself off a roof in front of me, seeing him spread out over the pavement, blood pooling around his head, is not something I’m ever going to forget or be all right about. There will be days that I may not think about it at all, there will be days when I’m so angry and hurt and betrayed that I can hardly see straight, and there will be days where I need you in my line of sight at all times to make sure you’re real and not going to disappear on me again. The one thing I want you to know, even through the yelling that I will inevitably do, and yes, maybe tears, is that there will never be a happier person than me as when I saw you that day.”

2) Sherlock has a danger night. John is getting ready to go out to meet some friends at the pub, but Sherlock asks him to stay. At first John doesn’t understand, but quickly figures it out, then feels bad for having not recognized the signs. He asks Sherlock what he needs, which is just for John to be close, so they relocate to Sherlock’s bed where they curl up together. After they’ve lain there for a while, Sherlock having almost immediately relaxed in John’s embrace, John thanks Sherlock for coming to him. He realizes how much it cost for Sherlock to ask, but he’s infinitely grateful that he did. Sherlock could or could not admit this is a much better result than him trying to deal with it alone. Bonus for a following part where the needs are reversed and John needs Sherlock.


Soulmate AU with a tiny twist-any or gen (fav pairings mentioned)

(Anonymous) 2015-01-07 06:29 am (UTC)(link)
Soul mates are a real thing and people usually hold onto "wisps" of them. As in a person has 'visions' almost like faded memories or clips of their soulmate- their fingers across their favored instrument, a babies laughing eyes, the smell of their favorite perfume, that persons first illicit activity, sirens and anger...etc. Tiny things that give hints as to where their soul mates are and who they are. Nothing concrete or defining (and this would make it really interesting to see with someone like the Holmes ; them trying to solve it and scouting out places and such).People are supposed to use these hints (according to society) to find their soul mate. They won't know it's them (though they may get a feeling or they may match the "wisps" with a person) until a while after meeting that person and interacting with them. For most people it's a gradual realization , for others it can come out of no where (+5 If John's realization comes out of no where vs Sherlock's where he gradually figures it out). If a person misses their soul mate (like they meet but than depart) they sometimes realize it too.

However, sometimes people get their soulmate wrong. Other times (and this could be rare or not as rare as people are lead to believe) the images and such are a warning. Not a here they are but a stay away.

*Fav pairings(that don't have to stay pairings or be the main ones):
-Crieff/John (I think this one would be rather interesting...Crieff as in from Cabin Pressure)
-Rare pair

I like pretty much all the pairings though except for Sherlock/Molly and Sherlock/Irene. Those above are just my most favorite. Any orientation and a lack of actual sex/romance is fine too but please no John or Sherlock genderbend. Feel free to make it gen too if you can somehow work that out!

*Mycroft spends all his time trying to NOT figure out his soulmate. Sherlock, meanwhile , does the opposite for his own reason (he says to avoid them but in reality he is kinda lonely...) and keeps saying he's found them , goes maybe years thinking he is on to something, only for it to turn out that nope he's wrong again.

*Mycroft finds his soulmate first and their connection is so powerful he literally can't keep away.

*Seb and John...somehow in someway.

*Mrs. Hudson finds a new soulmate!

Artemis Fowl is Moriarty

(Anonymous) 2015-01-07 10:36 am (UTC)(link)
"Kid thinks he's Sherlock Holmes,"
"That's professor Moriarty,"

What if he was?

Please, please, I need a fic where Artemis Fowl is actually Jim Moriarty. Maybe his brain was messed up after regeneration, or he became good then his family was killed and he turned evil in the process of avenging them, maybe he was just bored. Doesn't matter. Sebastian Moran is compulsory. Sherlock's involvement is entirely up to the author and Seb can't know about his past beforehand.

BONUS POINTS: Sebastian actually met Artemis when he was a little kid and Artemis was older because it was before his age was fucked up. Jim remembers it. Sebastian doesn't.

TRIPLE BONUS POINTS: It was why he hired him.

Re: Artemis Fowl is Moriarty

[identity profile] 2015-01-08 03:06 pm (UTC)(link)
This sounds amazing. Too bad I don't know enough about artemis fowl to do it..

Re: Artemis Fowl is Moriarty

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mycroft and Sherlock both have eating disorders

(Anonymous) 2015-01-07 03:30 pm (UTC)(link)
John realises Mycroft and Sherlock both suffer from eating disorders.

Re: mycroft and Sherlock both have eating disorders

(Anonymous) 2015-01-07 04:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes! Please!

Re: mycroft and Sherlock both have eating disorders

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John/Sherlock. Dark!John, Dark!Sherlock. Dark declarations of love and marriage proposal. Deaths.

(Anonymous) 2015-01-07 04:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Sherlock is bored like hell. He needs a case, an interesting murder or two! He's climbing walls and and nearly starts shooting them again. John can't stand it any longer and decides to give Sherlock a case... He starts killing people. They are not very good people, so he's got no problem with that (for example, a woman who lures young men and women into prostitution and sexual slavery, a social worker who abuses elderly people and steals from them, an alcoholic who terrorises his whole family, a drug dealer). He makes the murders somewhat intriguing (he's a doctor, he can kill people in different ways, even though he prefers shooting as a soldier he is). It doesn't take long for Sherlock to deduce that John is the one who kills those people, but there are hidden messages here and there, personally for Sherlock, such as declarations of love and evidence of how much he means to John. John makes sure Sherlock is the only one who can see those things, and it makes Sherlock all bothered and flushed. He's happy and flattered, and John is the only person he's ever wanted.

The last (?) dead body has a string around its neck with a wedding ring meant for Sherlock. Sherlock is ready to squeal like a schoolgirl.

If there's sex, I prefer Top!John and Virgin!Sherlock (maybe one crime scene has a hidden message that tells Sherlock what John wants to do to him in bed, Sherlock gets aroused and gladly allows it to happen once they are home).

Re: John/Sherlock. Dark!John, Dark!Sherlock. Dark declarations of love and marriage proposal. Deaths

[identity profile] 2015-01-07 07:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh man i'd love to write this. I may start on it, no promises though so other people can fill if they like.

Asexual Sherlock Sleeps With Someone For A Case.

(Anonymous) 2015-01-08 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
Sherlock is a confirmed Asexual but his logical side tells him that the ends justify the means and he has sex with someone ( male or female) to gather information for a case... Who he otherwise would NEVER sleep with.

Afterwards Sherlock is upset by what he did and can't stop thinking about it. He is clearly quite psychologically disturbed by what happened and even more disturbed that it affected him at all ( he was expecting to be able to compartmentalise).

Maybe John finds out and is horrified/comforting.

Sherlock Goes To John's Family Gathering - Angst, Dark.

(Anonymous) 2015-01-08 01:00 am (UTC)(link)
Johns dysfunctional family has a reunion/intervention/gathering. John tries to keep it secret but Sherlock finds out and insists on coming along.

It turns out that John's childhood was an absolute nightmare. Worse than anyone imagined. Its amazing that John is as sane as he is.

John is sure that Sherlock will start analysing the situation, showing off how clever he is, Unearthing all John's family skeletons and throwing them in his face. But it turns out that Sherlock deduced years ago that John had an abusive or dark past and he just wanted to be there for his friend at what he knows will be a difficult time.

Maybe Sherlock solves a Watson family mystery or two while he's at it.

Re: Sherlock Goes To John's Family Gathering - Angst, Dark.

(Anonymous) 2015-01-08 02:07 am (UTC)(link)
Oh yes please

Sherlock and Mycroft grew up privileged and John used to think they were poor.

(Anonymous) 2015-01-08 02:49 am (UTC)(link)
They've never had a whole lot of food for example. Easy make just add eggs and water cakes? No bitch it's either from scratch home made or from scratch handmade by a chef and with the best ingredients. So a block of butter on sale at $4?! What the fuck. We also bought butter for $4 but it was like a small amount. And sometimes they've not heard of some products like canned crab or something I dunno. The more exaggerated the better.

John used to relate to the odd things Sherlock said because he assumed Sherlock grew up poor. But it's the opposite and he realises on a trip to the estate Sherlock grew up on. John's assumption for Mycroft is that he's been the government for so long he's sort of detached from peasant reality, of course he would have a personal chef and people taste his food for poison first.

That sort of thing.

Same hole Double penetration, overstimulation, encouraged forced orgasm, near panic

(Anonymous) 2015-01-08 04:14 am (UTC)(link)
I want Sherlock in the middle taking two cocks in the same hole and all he can do is clutch at whoever is in front of him for dear life.

Over simulation, he's already cum a few times. In fact he came before he was even penetrated by a cock.

But his partners are so gentle and encouraging him to just keep going and he's seriously overstimulated and crying and probably about to panic. But it feels so good though.

John lock noncon imagination

(Anonymous) 2015-01-08 12:44 pm (UTC)(link)
In a case, the victim had sex before death. There's no signs that it was rape but Sherlock suspects it but can't quite figure out why he suspects it.

Back home, he utilises his mind to find out how rape scenes could end in murder and leave no obvious evidence that it was non consensual sex as opposed to consensual followed by murder.

And in the many scenarios he imagined up, he constantly uses John as his attacker - mainly because John lives with him and it's easier to transition from reality into imagination.

He runs through every way he can think of but can't say for sure it was non consensual so he decides to come back to it later. Except he went a bit too far and real life John now makes him nervous

Moriarty/Sherlock, John/Sherlock, abusive and manipulative relationship

(Anonymous) 2015-01-08 12:49 pm (UTC)(link)
John is off trying to salvage his marriage. But it's a lost cause.

Moriarty (hand wave magic) courts Sherlock and manages to get Sherlock into an abusive relationship.

John pretty much drops his life to try to save Sherlock. Sherlock is completely engulfed in Moriarty's lies, deceit and manipulation. He defends Moriarty! He sees the good and the change. Sometimes he justifies the abuse.

With others help, the relationship is successfully destroyed and Sherlock is living with john again. Sherlock understands how abusive relationship works but he doesn't recognise that he was in one. Even though he draws parallels.

Sherlock and John rescue a hooker

(Anonymous) 2015-01-09 01:46 am (UTC)(link)
One of Sherlocks homeless network shows up at Baker's St. Beaten half to death. She's a young prostitute. Sherlock is uncharacteristicly nice to her and determined to track down the man who hurt her. John begins to realize that Sherlock has personal experience with the sex trade -from when he was a young drug addict living on the streets.

Re: Sherlock and John rescue a hooker

(Anonymous) 2015-01-09 11:05 pm (UTC)(link)

Re: Sherlock and John rescue a hooker

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Dark! Sherlock gets away with it because of Mycroft

(Anonymous) 2015-01-09 11:14 am (UTC)(link)
John and Sherlock have sex, experiment, whatever and Sherlock loses control of himself. Rapes/hurts/nearly kills John and it's completely his fault, he's actually to blame and it's not just survivor's guilt. Afterwards he realises what he has done and wants to turn himself in or at least John to tell someone but realises his brother has threatened him into silence, and he can't tell anyone either because his brother will make sure John's blamed. Can be omegaverse, vamplock, any AU. I just really want to see Sherlock drowning in guilt.

Bonus points for the hurt scene but not really necessary and I'll sell you my soul if it's through flashbacks.

Sherlock's biggest kink is being continuously triggered.

(Anonymous) 2015-01-09 12:02 pm (UTC)(link)
John sometimes helps so he can control the aftercare

Sherlock/any: Catatonic state (kidnapping, Dubcon/noncon , orgasm denial/delay, rut/heat)

(Anonymous) 2015-01-10 05:27 am (UTC)(link)
John (or any character!) finds Sherlock in a nearly catatonic state . Turns out whoever kidnapped him has kept him in a near constant state of rut/heat. Does John take advantage? After all Sherlock will never know...or is he the good samaritan that helps free Sherlock ? If he does free Sherlock does Sherlock "wake up" enough to beg for a different type of release ?

Expansion of prompt/bonuses:
-The only way besides drugs to keep Sherlock in such a state is constant teasing without allowing him more than the occasional orgasm which was done more as an after thought. Sherlock went from extremely wanton to catatonic due to being held for months and months (or longer) without being allowed to orgasm enough to get out of rut/heat.

-Not omega verse. Instead Sherlock is something like a Satyr or other mythical type being. Or if omegaverse most people including John or normal humans.

-The "owner" kept him as a trophy/to keep his scent constantly circulating/as a display item and NOT a sex slave .

- John helps free Sherlock and takes him back with him to help him recover.

-If John doesn't know him (pre canon meeting) when he finally does meet him he doesn't mention it . Sherlock meanwhile keeps wanting to find the man that saved him but feels too ashamed.

-After wards Sherlock tries begging John to fuck him but John refuses him . This could end well or badly for John...

-John finds him because the house he keeps passing smells sweet and strange.

-It's not Moriarty who is keeping him

Seven hours in hell. Mystrade.

(Anonymous) 2015-01-10 08:46 am (UTC)(link)
Sherlock locks Mycroft and Lestrade in a closet for a few hours (does not have to be seven, ohemefgee, that's just a play on Seven Minutes in Heaven) because he's really tired of them dancing around the fact that they like each other. What Sherlock forgets to factor into the equation is that Mycroft is claustrophobic. Being figuratively in the closet is one thing, but being literally in the closet is quite another entirely.

Run wild. Do whatever. I do want eventual Mystrade, though.

Sherlock restrains from sexual things because he hates his genitals (past childhood molestation/rape

(Anonymous) 2015-01-10 02:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Desire to mutilate ones own genitalia.

Sherlock thinks he would not have been touched or hurt if he didn't have that thing between his legs.

When he gets hard, he often becomes terrified. He may hit himself or cause harm to distract himself or he may very roughly jerk off until he can't cum anymore. Either way, it hurts.

One day, in a haze of exhaustion, Sherlock confesses his struggles. If I didn't have this thing, I wouldn't feel so vulnerable. What would happen John if I just cut it off. I would feel safer, right?

John is terrified Sherlock will hurt himself beyond repair. He goes into hypervigence mode and tries to get a therapist to come see Sherlock.

Sherlock is irritated. He wouldn't have hurt himself. It was a moment of weakness when he uttered those words. And to his dismay, the therapist tried to get him reacquainted with his genitalia, hoping that Sherlock will once again be able to enjoy sexual activity without destructive feelings.

Despite this, Sherlock and John fall in love. And Sherlock starts actively working towards recovery because he becomes curious about what intimacy with someone he loves would feel like.

Re: Sherlock restrains from sexual things because he hates his genitals (past childhood molestation/

(Anonymous) 2015-01-10 07:55 pm (UTC)(link)
I want this so bad right now. Seconding!

Sherlock knows homophobia exists but he doesn't really KNOW know

(Anonymous) 2015-01-10 10:04 pm (UTC)(link)
I think maybe in a case, the victims were beaten to death. That so much is clear and rarely Sherlock gets interested in the WHY. They aren't government officials (so terrorism/revenge/assassination is ruled out) not overly religious or not at all religious (again, terrorism, hate etc), they were both White and fell in the majority of where they lived and work (so unlikely to be racially related), they were high school sweethearts and have not separated since getting together (so obviously not a jealous ex lover), they were both working low profile jobs (unlikely killed for revenge because of something they did at work), friends and family interview all stated the same things about their personality, maybe they were killed because they were too nice. So Sherlock wants to know why they were attacked so seemingly randomly and murdered. So why the fuck? THERE WAS NO POINT.

Lestrade explains carefully to him that they were attacked and killed not at entirely at random. It was because someone saw them holding hands and didn't like it.

Sherlock is baffled. He doesn't think holding hands automatically mean you're gay. He held hands with Mycroft. He's most certainly not in an incestuous gay relationship with him. He held hands with John a few times before when John's or his own PTSD suddenly acted up. How can people jump to conclusions that holding hands mean they are gay? Lestrade is like, "it's just the probability" which Sherlock accepts but then he's like but how does that affect anyone else to the point where they actively attack and murder? Statistically and in theory, people should be lazier/can't be bothered when not emotionally charged by revenge especially if it's a complete stranger. It can't be only just because the murderer believed them to be gay.

So Sherlock decides he needs to experiment for himself. He goes around many neighbourhoods at various times holding hands with John (most of the time) and he amount of hate he receives in some areas over others is astounding. He also noted that their appearance and perceived compatibility by handsomeness/occupation also gave different results.

Then for shits and giggles, Sherlock gets into a relationship with a man (can be john) out of spite (he likes the boyfriend a lot, but Sherlock isnt a relationship person... Except if he is going to fall in love he can truly fall in love with this person and if it pisses an entire group of people too, then he will take more delight). Prior to this, Sherlock hasn't really thought about sexuality in terms of himself - if he likes someone obviously that persons mind is brilliant who the fuck cares what's between his legs, it's not like sex is going to take up 100% of their relationship.