Sherlock thinks he would not have been touched or hurt if he didn't have that thing between his legs.
When he gets hard, he often becomes terrified. He may hit himself or cause harm to distract himself or he may very roughly jerk off until he can't cum anymore. Either way, it hurts.
One day, in a haze of exhaustion, Sherlock confesses his struggles. If I didn't have this thing, I wouldn't feel so vulnerable. What would happen John if I just cut it off. I would feel safer, right?
John is terrified Sherlock will hurt himself beyond repair. He goes into hypervigence mode and tries to get a therapist to come see Sherlock.
Sherlock is irritated. He wouldn't have hurt himself. It was a moment of weakness when he uttered those words. And to his dismay, the therapist tried to get him reacquainted with his genitalia, hoping that Sherlock will once again be able to enjoy sexual activity without destructive feelings.
Despite this, Sherlock and John fall in love. And Sherlock starts actively working towards recovery because he becomes curious about what intimacy with someone he loves would feel like.
Sherlock restrains from sexual things because he hates his genitals (past childhood molestation/rape
Sherlock thinks he would not have been touched or hurt if he didn't have that thing between his legs.
When he gets hard, he often becomes terrified. He may hit himself or cause harm to distract himself or he may very roughly jerk off until he can't cum anymore. Either way, it hurts.
One day, in a haze of exhaustion, Sherlock confesses his struggles. If I didn't have this thing, I wouldn't feel so vulnerable. What would happen John if I just cut it off. I would feel safer, right?
John is terrified Sherlock will hurt himself beyond repair. He goes into hypervigence mode and tries to get a therapist to come see Sherlock.
Sherlock is irritated. He wouldn't have hurt himself. It was a moment of weakness when he uttered those words. And to his dismay, the therapist tried to get him reacquainted with his genitalia, hoping that Sherlock will once again be able to enjoy sexual activity without destructive feelings.
Despite this, Sherlock and John fall in love. And Sherlock starts actively working towards recovery because he becomes curious about what intimacy with someone he loves would feel like.