Sometimes, John has flashbacks during sex. It may or may not include John having witnessed military rape.
Anything can set it off, the way Sherlock is shaking beneath him, the way Sherlock's face is turned away and hidden in the pillows, the sound of Sherlock's voice, the small of Sherlock's back, the contrast between his own hands and Sherlock's skin... or whatever nothing to do with Sherlock.
But the flashbacks happen and John will start to feel furious - that he was helpless, that he couldn't save the victim/s, that he could only stand by and watch, that he didn't speak up. This fury causes John to grip harder, fuck Sherlock ferociously and he only comes down after he orgasms. He's disgusted with himself when he looks at Sherlock's body, the bruises, his hand prints, the tears and crying, the way Sherlock holds his back the next day, the way Sherlock walks, or refuses to sit... But he can't stop.
The first few times, Sherlock doesn't notice or he doesn't mind - rough sex can be fun. And it doesn't happen all the time. But it gets worse and Sherlock is shocked when John doesn't even seem to be there anymore during these episodes. When John doesn't stop when Sherlock asks, Sherlock starts to fight back. Sherlock is strong and skilled, John is in the middle of a flashback and they fight physically.
Sherlock knocks John out and while catching his breath, he notices the room show signs of struggle, there's blood. Sherlock is even more shocked when he reaches down between his legs to feel for damage and finds his fingers are bloodied. For a terrifying moment, Sherlock is actually shell shocked by what happened here and he just CAN'T think right. John's not moving on the floor, there's a head wound, there's bleeding and Sherlock calls Mycroft.
When Mycroft comes, he's with Lestrade, both not knowing what they will see because it's not expected but when they get there, everything is a mess, Sherlock is naked, bleeding, bruised and unresponsive. John is unconscious, half naked, bleeding, on the floor across the room from Sherlock. What the fuck is going on?
Johnlock - sometimes when they have sex, John has flashbacks, which leads to very rough sex (noncon?
Anything can set it off, the way Sherlock is shaking beneath him, the way Sherlock's face is turned away and hidden in the pillows, the sound of Sherlock's voice, the small of Sherlock's back, the contrast between his own hands and Sherlock's skin... or whatever nothing to do with Sherlock.
But the flashbacks happen and John will start to feel furious - that he was helpless, that he couldn't save the victim/s, that he could only stand by and watch, that he didn't speak up. This fury causes John to grip harder, fuck Sherlock ferociously and he only comes down after he orgasms. He's disgusted with himself when he looks at Sherlock's body, the bruises, his hand prints, the tears and crying, the way Sherlock holds his back the next day, the way Sherlock walks, or refuses to sit... But he can't stop.
The first few times, Sherlock doesn't notice or he doesn't mind - rough sex can be fun. And it doesn't happen all the time. But it gets worse and Sherlock is shocked when John doesn't even seem to be there anymore during these episodes. When John doesn't stop when Sherlock asks, Sherlock starts to fight back. Sherlock is strong and skilled, John is in the middle of a flashback and they fight physically.
Sherlock knocks John out and while catching his breath, he notices the room show signs of struggle, there's blood. Sherlock is even more shocked when he reaches down between his legs to feel for damage and finds his fingers are bloodied. For a terrifying moment, Sherlock is actually shell shocked by what happened here and he just CAN'T think right. John's not moving on the floor, there's a head wound, there's bleeding and Sherlock calls Mycroft.
When Mycroft comes, he's with Lestrade, both not knowing what they will see because it's not expected but when they get there, everything is a mess, Sherlock is naked, bleeding, bruised and unresponsive. John is unconscious, half naked, bleeding, on the floor across the room from Sherlock. What the fuck is going on?