I think rape is ultimately more an act of power and humiliation than of sexual gratification. That's why it usually rubs me the wrong way when fic authors have rapists utter run-of-the-mill dirty talk. I mean, played right, having a rapist say "normal" things during sex can be extremely creepy and unsettling. The "normal" dirty talk can be mocking, and thus serve to underscore the rapist's cruelty, or it can be sincere, and thus serve to underscore that the rapist is batshit enough to believe they're not committing rape. But I think that a lot of the time it bespeaks a lack of creativity on the author's part and indicates that they're treating rape like "normal" sex minus consent rather than something in its own category.

And so the things John says during the rape are supposed to be creepy. But it isn't a power trip for him in the sense that he's trying to terrorize or humiliate Sherlock. It's more that he feels trapped in a life that isn't his (Mary, stable job, house in the 'burbs), and taking what he's always secretly wanted (Sherlock), but been denied at every turn, gives him a sense of reclaiming the power he's lost.

There's a new part up. Hope it's to your liking. And, no, it's not a bad thing to like some good old-fashioned angst. ;)

I hope this post makes sense. I'm dead tired at the moment.