Thank you! OP asked for heartbreaking as possible, so there will certainly be some guilt coming after for being the one to come up with this 'arrangement'.

I am so very sorry to hear that you've been through something similar :( I am also pulling bits of this from personal experience. I've found that sometimes writing (and reading!) relevant works can help the healing process.

Like I said originally, I don't know how quickly updates will come, but when they do, I hope you enjoy :)

xx lilylashes