But this wasn't fake. It was going to happen. Tonight.
Mary treated it like some sort of group bonding session. Well, she was more of a free spirit. No inhibition. This sort of thing was new to him, but not to her? Maybe it wasn't that unusual, having two people you loved. And he did love them both, truly. And, want them, both. Not an entirely new feeling, but one he'd never chosen to act on. Maybe it was all right, this infatuation with a man he thought incapable of truly loving him back. Maybe just a physical relationship could work? He'd almost talked himself into a confident stance, when the doubt resurfaced. What if he ended up paying more attention to Sherlock than to Mary? What if Sherlock liked Mary more than him? What would he be exposing to possible scrutiny? God, it would have been so much simpler had Sherlock said no.
FILL 6b/? "Three" (Threesome fail)
Mary treated it like some sort of group bonding session. Well, she was more of a free spirit. No inhibition. This sort of thing was new to him, but not to her? Maybe it wasn't that unusual, having two people you loved. And he did love them both, truly. And, want them, both. Not an entirely new feeling, but one he'd never chosen to act on. Maybe it was all right, this infatuation with a man he thought incapable of truly loving him back. Maybe just a physical relationship could work? He'd almost talked himself into a confident stance, when the doubt resurfaced. What if he ended up paying more attention to Sherlock than to Mary? What if Sherlock liked Mary more than him? What would he be exposing to possible scrutiny? God, it would have been so much simpler had Sherlock said no.